so high in the frequencies, it’s her chemical scream, but she has to breathe tonight.

[Chapter Eight]

May 9, 2007 at 4:14 am ([the book of life])

So I’m not really sure how I feel (big surprise there). I think that whole Smiley thing was just… like a fling I guess? Or, that’s the best word I can think of for it. Like, he’s cool to hang out with, but I think I’ve realized that he’s friend-material, not boyfriend-material. But, I’m still thinking about it… he still makes me smile. There’s that tingly feeling again.

Gir’s boyfriend Venom was talking to me today, saying that he could have something written better than me by next friday. I didn’t go for the contest, and after sharing a drawing, and him promising to send me one later, he says something along the lines of ‘So i remember I always used to look at you cos u were so cute’ now, i don’t want to open up the actual convo, cos I’m tired, but that’s basically what he said. So i said ‘that’s nice and all, but just don’t…’ yadda yadda yadda, all on about how he was going out with Just Jimmy, but he liked Gir, and now how he’s going out with Gir, but he’s still crushing on Kate and Kendal, and then he tells me im cute…? it’s just, i don’t want to get caught in the middle of it.

So yes, orchestra field trip tomorrow. Only 2 to a bus seat. I’m wondering who I’ll sit with…